Signs that your supervisor does not trust you

BB2: Do you know how to solve equation xyz? (1st sign: asking you a question)

Me: Yes, I know how to solve it.

BB2: You use xxx method to solve equation xyz. (2nd sign: giving you answers to the same question that he had just asked)

Me: (Didnt I just told him that I know how to solve this?)

BB2: Do it and show it to me later so I will know that you don't make any mistake. (3rd sign: wants proof that you can do it)

Confession of an internet addict

My name is N.A and I am an internet addict and I have not been working as hard as I should do.

I have a very short attention span when it comes to work, especially when I have the world at my finger tips (i.e the internet). After 15 minutes of work my internet cravings would surface, and I would generously give in to the temptation. The things that I surf is nothing important, sometimes related to work, most of the times not. But rest assured they consist of 'tame' stuff.

My countermeasure for withdrawal is putting up a daily/weekly 'tick' table so that I am aware of exactly how many hours that I have done 'real' work in a day. At the start, I was good. But after a few days the temptation to click that mouse is too difficult to resist. I realized that I need to do something else to further strengthen my effort of revival. If the problem is the computer in front of me, then so be it, I need to work 'away' from it unless my work needs some computer programming. I told myself, I can sit in front of this box (I am also an addict of another box, i.e the television) for leisure if and only if it is during my breaks, which is about 15 minutes in between my 45 mins sit. So now, I have been working not in the office, but in some empty lecture room or the library, with my mobile a.k.a the alarm clock blaring every 45 minutes. Alhamdulillah so far, I have managed to work like 45 mins in one sit and yesterday 45 mins wasn't enough that I need to extend it to 60-90 mins in one session.

This entry is written on my err..'extended' 15mins break ;). I am no angel.

Motivated today

"H.T is doing P. Model too. She'll be working in Warwick as a Research Assistant in October"

"If you work hard, you can do it too"

11:16 am

I admit the lull was a long one. Lots of things have happened and many things have not. Sherri has now joined the elitist, the academician of the country. And I'm still stuck with Plaid.

I need to see BB2 today. Desperately. My Plaid is getting nowhere. But he's not in. I'll wait till 11:30am, if he doesnt come, I'm going to seek solace at the library.